what gets neglected in this trade of time? what appendages could i let atrophy and which could i value more. will i sever ties with my fraktal selves today or tomorrow. i took my ninja time and broke through some tense feelings. what good is virtue. i thought about the power in exploring the body breathe and entering into the unknown. i work to master taming tigers when i could be taming desire. distracted. facebook is a reward system. look i just got lost in my phone again. ready for punishment.

painkillers. tell me what i need to hear      with meaning.

contentless and camerabodied

making plans
making forgeries
looking for things
stalking people
taking pleasure
getting distracted
writing lists
shaping immaterials
organizing bodyspace
organizing mindspace
neural emptyspace
looking for things
examining myself
taking inventory
being indulgent
project management
automating fingers
playing dumb
refresh communications
grasping listening
overthinking

—

Closet Jargon II.

collecting seasons whilst

tailoring ideological gum

on the window display

plan for dash cam sex

or ambient lonecore

iphone growing something

pseudoproduction

performing sightlines

with virtue

what is this trap
of ux design
where is it
inside of me
in front of me
playing me
preparing me
daring me
caring for me
getting paid

Closet Jargon I.

reading at the place where i am

this train station is a mirage

unlocationed sahara heavy and wordless

my anti boyfriend renames me

debt ghost (i) on the way to the party

me, envisioning electric blue halos on

other ancestors from nonorigins oz, they—

with cash contracts to refrain priding and

fyll of teeth to get pulled by past (eyes)

trying to howl while keeping in flocks

pretending to be a ghost i observe them

me— with SMS texts from indra to ignore

and stories to preserve when i get home

to sculpt oneself as though an art object by subjugating oneself as an object… self knowledge and self creation become products—and often accompanied by some understanding of the object’s relationship to society. the raw materials of this process are perhaps space and time and cognition and media. by media i am usually referring to data; in other words: text, image and moving image; but not limited to: format, style, and any other material. what is happening online, aquí,? what could be generated in a month without media, without content? that month, it appears rather abyss-like, like a desert but a desert for the mind. i’ll go sit in the desert with all my fevers.

contentless and cameraless
other people make it real

actualization
necessitating artistic isolation

The boarded up ones are possessed in having ownership but dispossessed by being unoccupied and neglected.

a basic capacity for
manual labor +
emotional labor +
intellectual +
creative +
self maintenance +
community =

• hot salad
  Red vino
  painting
  los globos
  sweeping
  fm Saginaw
  fm Moscow
  fm Portland
  fm Houston
  fm Cali
  its not right
  but its ok
• overheard in the club
  my spirit animal use to b a fox but now its a hesgehog.
  i dont want to be judged for appropriating.
  are yer neerv endings overstimulated like mine.