freedom is in the expression i hav
in my thoughts
and my toes

days are for exploring
finding inspiration and materials
nights and mornings are for making
deep dive into a fever

Facebucks
Fuckbook

3/12 was pretty average, keeping this damn thing on my person all day. Check time and notifications three times while in bed (1). Receive Email: personal. Receive personal call. Receive Email: work. Check calendar and to-dos before getting out of bed. Play music on iTunes while doing some work on computer. Reply to Email: personal. Charge device. Texting: personal. Check IG – nothing interesting, adjust notification settings to b less. Play different music while working some more. Use Find My Friends to check if client is at office yet – he is. Send text. Use the LightMeter app – find its ridiculous 90’s-web look cute, but non-functional. Nonetheless, it did just what i needed it to. I access the camera by sliding my thumb up from the bottom of the viewport. Check time. Refer to work email. Looking for an older photo in Photos – can’t find. Posts recent photos on IG. Receive and reply text. Check time – sad its gotten so late. Receive Email: personal. Reply to email: personal (2). Check time. Check IG. Refer to archived email. Looking for an older photo – found it. Send text. Receive response – feel agitated. Flip through phone – nothing to procrastinate on. Play music on iTunes while making dinner. Look at Facebook. Keeping phone closeby always. Checked Facebook again. Set alarms. Podcast – to sleep.
(1) I dont know if this is interesting to you but i have haptics disabled on my phone. Like no vibrating – needed to separate my biological/neurological self from my technology.

(2) How does anyone stop themselves in the slippery slope of obligations?

At an obscure rite-of-passage,         There is so much humanity in
wabi-sabi replaces angst.            ephemeral query wandering

in the dark romance      /        becoming a free-agent

i like to be theatrical with my words and sigh when
people receive the connotative force, and for some reason
not the meaning of my statements

the selection of a lexicon had seemed a logical choice
because my emotions were leading them.

but when the effect i want is a coercive one,
maybe i can teach myself to articulate the same statements

sans the bite, so persons can
(people are programmable people)
understand the fucking message

communication infrastructure,
or media, is oblivious. and is
therefore, not an inherently
positive or negative technology.

it performs the only
task of technology which
is to complete a set of tasks.

it is not in the program of a
machine to decide if the action
will exploit or empower humans.

nijk is a minimal and mechanical and moody nijk.

out of context information

im sorry

searching for excuses

im sorry

i’ve been looking at a screen my whole life

and i feel a little

ocd

and a lot

of being overwhelmed & overstimulated

while overanalyzing & overobligating

a physical and limited

person

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inventing more conditions,
un-necessary layers that muddle the vision.

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headaches,
there are better things to worry about.

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freedom is leaving the unknown up to chance
some kind of ‘vulnerable’, an un-designed situation