I’m still here
Confusing and abusing myself to solve this

Unpleasant shaking in the office
Not because I have no jacket
Trips to my nearest outlet
For minor fits of sadness

I’m too weak to cry to you on the phone
To go to work, too sick to be left alone
I’m burning my eyes with acidic tears till I’m dry
The reservoir moderately refills another time

I’m jealous of the couples in bliss
Jealous of your new girl
Catching everything that I miss
Like that 12 hours in-between her and my kiss

And I’m still here
Sinking and not sleeping and holding my chest

Holding my stomach hostage and twisting the knife
Like I’m juicing a lemon